Seasons
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Have you ever been stuck in a season for a long period of time? You may even ask God when is the harvest coming? When is the winter going to be over? You may even feel like you can’t take it anymore. Well, today I feel like the Lord wants me to be vulnerable and share about a time in my life when I felt this way.
“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.”
About two and a half years ago, I felt like my whole world was falling a part. It felt like every other day something bad was happening to those I loved. Not only that, but I was so insecure in who I was, and I felt lost and alone. I was angry with God because I didn’t understand why my dad has the painful disease he has. I was hurt when our beach house burned down and other family members were being diagnosed with auto immune diseases. It felt like my whole world was crashing down, and I was blaming God.
Then, The Lord asked me to go to Legacy School of Discipleship. It was a 6 week semester of going deeper in my relationship with Jesus. It was that summer where the Lord totally and completely changed me. For the first time in my life, I felt the tangible love of our Heavenly Father. I broke down and let go of trying to contain my emotions of the hurt I had been feeling. I laid it all down at the cross. His perfect love changed me in an instant. Here is one of my journal entries from that summer:
“I am no longer bitter, and I trust you and know that all of the hardship and brokenness my family is going though is not in vain. It doesn’t take away the pain and sadness, but I trust you with my life. I am no longer going to pick up my own cross and nails. Instead, I am laying my emotions at your feet. I am a broken vessel and I want you to continue to break me so you can fill my container.”*
These are two amazing daughters of christ who i met at legacy school of discipleship!
Sometimes in life we go through things so we can be shaped into an even greater image of Jesus Christ. In these seasons, we are molded into who we are destined to be. Yes, it can be hard and painful, but in Jesus we can find refuge. Instead of focusing on all of the hardship I was going through, I turned my eyes to Jesus. I saw His perfect, beautiful face. It was then when I felt His tangible love. I was undone by His glory. I couldn’t help but to kneel at His feet and worship Him. When I was broken, He filled me with His presence. When I was overwhelmed by my surroundings, He filled me with peace and stillness. When I felt like I could never laugh again, He filled me with a joy that never runs dry. When I was bitter and angry, He loved me still. His perfect love casts out fear. Therefore, I need not to fear what may happen to those I love, but instead, know that we are loved and destined for greatness.
“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.”
We are blessed to go through winter seasons! We are being transformed into an even greater image of our Heavenly Father. That summer I learned that what was happening to my family was a blessing. We were hand-picked by God to endure this trial. We are being shaped and transformed. I was filled with His Holy Spirit, and I was forever changed. When I left Legacy, my outward situation had not changed, BUT my inward spirit had been restored. My life had been transformed. I left being so secure in who I am, which is a beautiful daughter of Christ. I left with His Indwelling Spirit living inside of me. I left there with a longing of pursuing Him and to be pursued by Him. I laid down my lusts and passions for this world, and I picked up His Heavenly eyes. I want to be holy and pure! I left with a joy that sustains any trial. I left with a peace that surpasses all understanding. I left with my eyes on one thing only, Jesus Christ!
If Jesus is all I get in this life, then I will succeed. I will be full of joy and life. Jesus you are all I need and want.
During that same season, I met the love of my life and now husband, Ash Burdette! Guys in the midst of my struggles, God blessed me with the most amazing man. If we continue dwelling in the pain and outward situations, then we can miss the biggest blessings God wants to give us in the midst of the sufferings. Also, I made friendships that will last a lifetime -including Anna Cate Peebles who helped me design my blog!!! In the midst of trials, He is GOOD! He is faithful. He is redeemer. He is healer. He is almighty! He is still the King of Kings. He is unmoved, and He is never changing! I am undone by His love. His perfect love casts out fear.
yes- this is a picture of ash and i when we were best friends at legacy!
Therefore, whatever season you are walking in, know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Spring is near! I challenge you to find Jesus in the midst of your situation and ask Him how He see’s what is going on around you. Our life on Earth is only temporary. We weren’t created for this life, but for our eternal dwelling place, Heaven. We are called to love Jesus every day of our lives. When walking through the hard seasons of life, remember the promises the Lord has spoken over you. His promises ARE YES AND AMEN!!!!
“For no matter how many promises God has made, they are ‘Yes’ in Christ. And so through him the ‘Amen’ is spoken by us to the glory of God.”
I want to remind you that your winter season will come to an end. Hold on to the promises He has spoken over you. Whether you need breakthrough for finances, relationships, marriage or disease, know that our God is good and your breakthrough is coming. He is faithful. He is redeemer of marriages. He is healer of all diseases. He is the giver of good gifts. Your Spring is coming. In Jesus name, I pray for breakthrough in whatever you are needing! For now, I will continue looking at Jesus because in Him are the wellsprings of life. I will be unmoved by my outward circumstances. For He is good today, tomorrow and forevermore!
The song below is so powerful. Thank you God for the changing of seasons!
